Open Letter: How Are You, Really?

How am I doing?

Well, if you were to ask me this my answer would be, I am doing just fine, how are you? But if I am going to be honest there is so much going on in my life I wish to tell you. All the good things and the bad. But right now I am not doing so well. You needn't worry about me, I am fine, just not great.

It's been stressful the past weeks. So many things are happening all at once and I cannot keep up. I am drowning in the sea of thousands of unfinished sentences. It never ends. Days feel so quick. Every single day of the week feels like a Wednesday.

I wish to just press pause and breath a moment even if it's just for a couple of seconds. I wish I could go back to a time where things were simpler. Where when I wake up I feel excited for the day to come and the tasks I will need to accomplish and the new things I will learn. I wish to feel good again. I wish to leave all my responsibilities behind and catch a train to Central Manila and get lost in the sea of people. I wish to become a bubble and pop out of existence. I wish my responsibilities would disappear.

It may seem bad, and it is. But I am trying every single day. I do my very best to make myself feel better and to honor my duties. Even if it's not so great right now, it's fine. I am going to be just fine.

So dearest, how are you, really?